The Ups & Downs

I'm feeling a little bit discourage about this whole thing. It's only been two weeks, so I know I can't expect to see any GREAT difference yet, but I would like to see/feel at least something. I've come to a conclusion that weekends SUCK with a new diet/me/program. Basically if I want to do anything, be out with people, and have fun, it generally requires eating past 7. Well past 7. On top of it, it's pretty much never healthy food. How do I do it? Is it really just self control? I guess that would be pretty much the essence of this whole thing....why can't it be easy?

"Anything worth doing, isn't easy" I'm not sure if that's an actual quote, but it's definitely true. And sucks.

Motivation is hard to come by these days, especially when the things you think should be happening (not just in the health/body field), don't happen. At all. I guess my main motivation is to be healthy, and feel good about who I am. I don't hate who I am, I just know I could be a better me. For me. Not for anyone else.

I'm rededicating myself today. I'm adding new rules, things that I've done in the past two weeks, that have probably annulled any progress I could have made.

Pizza: Out.

Desserts: Out. I'm going to add exceptions....I have weddings coming up soon, and events. Other than those, no desserts.

Yeah, only two things, and it's not like I've been eating them a ton, but I know for sure they aren't helping. I love Pizza, but I know I can survive without it....at least until i'm losing weight, and can "afford" to eat a bit again.

I don't think I'm going to go for a run today, Just don't feel like it, but I'll lift weights for an hour. The weekends are also hard to keep up with the exercising, but again, I know all it takes is dedication and will power. Which I know I have.